Well if you read my “About Me” page you know that I set a personal weight loss goal of 30 lbs. by my 30th birthday. Well after all the celebrating I did last week, I fell just short of my goal. Those pesky last 5 lbs just didn’t want to come off! I’m not going to sugar coat it….I got pissed at myself. I kept thinking….why did I HAVE to eat that slice of cake? Why did it take me so long to get back on track? After feeling sorry for myself for about a day or two it suddenly hit me….why am I doing this to myself? I came this far and that is something to be excited about. I looked in the mirror and I don’t see a huge change physcially….but I am my own worst critic. When taking my measurements I noticed that for some odd reason I’m losing most of the weight in other places other than my mid-section. I went down a whole cup size in my bra!!! Hubby was not thrilled about that when I told him….he had that “I CAN’T BELIEVE YOU” look come across his face. That is a little frustrating but….its more motivation to push myself to the next level.
I will admit losing this much weight is much harder than I anticipated….I knew it was going to be a lot of work physically but trying to make sure I am fueling my body with the best foods has proven to be a challenge for me and my schedule. Life has definitely been getting in the way lately and I keep falling off the wagon. With a schedule as fully packed as mine it’s so easy to get into the mindset of just getting something quick. It’s the convenience of just running in somewhere and being able to feed me and hubby quick. Getting back on track has definitely been my weakest point. I have started and stopped the 21 Day Fix 4 times now and each time I get more and moe determined to do it then….BOOM….another life event that has resulted in me indulging more than I should. Since I was little, my family has celebrated good and bad things with food….your celebrating your anniversary? LETS EAT!! It’s your birthday? LETS EAT!! It’s summer! LETS EAT!! You lost your job? LETS EAT!! I guess that’s how I grew into the emotional eater I am today. Everyday is a struggle but the battle is what makes you stronger. I am stronger than I was 6 months ago when I decided to start this journey. Could I have done better in the last few months and hit my goal? Sure but I will not dwell on the could have’s…but I will celebrate how far I have come and focus on where I’m going from here. Yesterday is in the past …tomorrow is my focus!
P.S. Just an update on my infertility journey. Blood work came back great (other than being Vitamin D deficient….I NEED MORE SUN!!) and I have official started Metformin as of last week. So far so good with it. I need to schedule what they call a “no-menses” or a no menstrual cycle work up with Shady Grove and then schedule an appointment with my primary care for a chicken pox vaccine since apparently I’m not immune (UGH…more needles). Anyways…..wish us luck on the next steps to starting our family!