I Joined the Gym!

Joined the gymSo I’m sure a lot of your are in the same boat as me when I say that I’ve always cared too much about what people thought about me. So much so that it has held me back and kept me from reaching my goals. I always avoided situations where I had to physical in front of other people or be in a swim suit in front of people just because I didn’t want them to judge me for being plump. With that being said I never in a million years thought that I would ever join a gym…working out in front of tiny little women in their cute little workout clothes….but I did it! I took the plunge and joined a gym. I’ve officially been a member of Edgewater Fitness for about a month now and I AM IN LOVE! I never thought that I would be so comfortable working out in front of other people……I feel more motivated there than I do at home. I guess it’s the fact that you never want to appear as if you are a slacker so you kick your own butt just to keep up with the lady beside you on the treadmill or lift 20 lb. weights instead of your normal 8 lb. weights because the girl next to you who is half your size is currently curling 30 lbs.

When I decided to join the gym, I knew that I needed to be committed to this because a) I was paying good money to be there and b) I have goals that I want to reach and I had to get serious if I want to reach them.  So far I hit the gym 4 days a week for at least an hour and a half during the week and on Saturdays I’m usually there for at least 2 hours….sometimes 3 if I don’t have much to do that day. Leaving the gym hot, sweaty and sore is by far the best feeling in the world. I always walk out of the gym knowing that I’m one step closer to the ultimate goal. I have no idea why it took me so long to do it.

If you are on the fence in joining a gym because you aren’t comfortable working out in front of people or just worried people are going to judge you….don’t listen to yourself! Take the plunge and join….its the best motivation I’ve ever had! I’ve already lost 10 lbs.  just by sticking to my schedule and trying to kick my own butt in the gym. I push and push myself harder and harder each and every time my sneakers hit that floor.  I can’t wait to see what happens after the end of month number 2!

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xoxo,

Jen

 

Losing Hope

TEARS-sad-songs-30412485-1280-960So its been a really long time since my last post. Not a lot has changed since my last post except I’ve really lost my motivation and my hope. I tried waking up every day with a positive attitude and tried to force myself to get motivated…to get moving….to hit the ground running. It seemed like every day I lost more and more of myself and it began to feel like all of that hard work that I was putting in wasn’t doing any good. I felt deprived, exhausted, lonely and just unworthy of anything. I finally gave up working out……continued to eat healthy for a while and then I eventually gave that up to and fell back into my old ways. Binge eating, takeout, McDonalds….whatever I wanted I let myself have. Then I looked at myself in the mirror with disgust because there I was a failure yet again. Why is it so hard for me to stick to something? Why is it so hard for me to lose this last 20 lbs. that I so desperately need to? I need to shed this last 20 lbs. so that I can move forward with my fertility treatments….what’s more motivating then that? I want nothing more than to be a mother…..so why is it so hard for me? Why can I not bring myself to stick to something and dig deep and do whatever I need to do to reach that goal? Life gets so busy and I’m a creature of habit…..I do what’s easy and convenient. I expected so much more from myself this time around and I still let myself, my husband and my future child(ren) down because I’m not able to stay focused enough to lose weight. As I sit here and write this all I can do is blame myself….beat myself up….everyone keeps telling me “So what you had a rough few months….get back on the horse and move forward.”. Easier said then done for someone like me….someone who has been heavy her entire life, someone who has hated herself for being plump, someone who wished that she was just like everyone else, someone who looks at the women around her and just wonders why I couldn’t be like one of them….why do I have live with burden of PCOS? What did I do to deserve this? Why me?

My Go To Recipes

Hey everyone! So everyone says that a healthy diet is the most important thing when you are trying to lose weight. This was and still is a big thing for me because I am all about convenience especially when it comes to lunch. I’m sure many of you can relate when I say that getting 5 minutes to eat at work on any given day is a win. I’ve been super swamped at work lately…short staffed, new year and a ton of projects to prepare for. So meal planning and prepping have been my new best friend. Prepping on Sundays for my lunches and dinners for that week has kept me on track and kept me from making some major mistakes. Below are some of my recent go to receipes. I hope that you enjoy them! 

My first go to meal is a Grilled Chicken Breast with side salad dressed with my homemade Italian dressing. This is one of the easiest meals you can prep. 

Season your chicken with a low sodium seasoning of your choice and grill until done. My favorite is the Mrs. Dash Fiesta seasoning. Toss spinach and roman lettuce together with cherry tomatoes, cucumbers and red onions. Dress your salad with the homemade Italian dressing. 

My favorite Italian dressing recipe is:

Ingredients:

1 cup Apple Cider Vinegar

1 1/4 cup Extra Virgin Olive Oil

1 tbsp garlic powder

1 tbsp onion powder

1 tbsp italian herb

1 tsp Dijon mustard (no sugar added)

1 tsp dried basil

1/2 tsp ground black pepper 

1/4 tsp sea salt

Directions:

1. Combine all ingredients in a blender and blend very well. 

2. Transfer dressing to a container and keep in the fridge for up to 2 months. 

3. Shake well and serve.

NOTE: Best to let it sit for a day or so to allow the herbs to infuse in the oil and vinegar. 
Greek Turkey Burgers topped with Tzatziki sauce and a Tomato and Cucumber salad

This is a favorite of mine and hubbies! The office is usually pretty jealous when I make these as well because the office normally smells amazing when I reheat them! 

Recipe is super easy as well:

Ingredients:

3/4 cup grated zucchini (squeezed to remove as much water as possible)

1 1/2 lbs lean ground turkey

2 cloves of garlic minced

1/4 cup of diced red onion

1 Tbsp dried oregano

3/4 tsp sea salt

3/4 tsp black pepper

1/3 cup Feta Cheese, crumbled

1/2 tsp fresh lemon juice

Directions:

1. In a large bowl, combine all the ingredients and mix well by hand. 

2. Divid into 6 Raquel patties. 

3. Cooke burgers on medium heat, about 5 minutes per side or until no longer pink in the middle. 

4. Top with tzatziki sauce and serve with your side. I chose a tomato, cumber and red onion salad dressed with my homemade Italian dressing (receipe listed above). 

You will have to forgive me…I forgot to snap a picture of this final receipe but this recipe has saved me so much time! This is called the 4 ingredient slow cooker salsa verde chicken! 

Ingredients:

6 Bonless, skinless chicken breast

2 Cups salsa verde

1 Bottle of beer (light of course!)

2 teaspoons ground cumin

Directions:

1. Add chicken to the slow cooker. Top with salsa verde and beer, and sprinkle with cumin and season with a few pinches of salt and pepper. 

2. Coat chicken by turning chicken over.

3. Cooke for 3 to 4 hours on high heat or 7 to 8 hours on low heat. 

4. Once chicken is done, remove from slowe cooker shred with two forks and place back in the slow cooker to toss with the sauce. 

NOTE: Store in the refrigerator in an air tight container for up to 5 days or freeze for up to 3 months. 

This chicken is great for tacos or burrito bowls or even to eat on a salad. Great for lunch or dinner! 

I hope that you all enjoyed these recipes! Let me know if you try any of them! If you enjoyed this post and wish to see more like this let me know!

Just a personal update…..I’ve lost a few more pounds and just that much closer to my goal!! Stay strong and keep moving everyone!

XoXo,

Jen